While I was walking Emma this afternoon -

- my Goddess, isn't it beautiful today - we took a shortcut through Hathorn Park and Emma went inside the baseball dugout. Russell's spirit struck me so hard I could almost smell him sitting there in his polyester uniform, chewing gum, his tanned face full of laughter, fooling around with his mates.....it was almost like a pain. Sometimes I miss my children so much I can't breathe.